Less Perfection - More Peace

I've struggled with perfectionism and still do, but thankfully it lessens each passing year. It is a beast that brings destruction and unhappiness. I want to remind myself to find beauty in imperfections, to accept things as they are, and once again to speak grace to myself.

Often I have tried being perfect to prove my worth.  Others times it's been to avoid scrutiny and judgement of others.  I tend to be my own worst critic, like plenty of other people, so I'm not exactly sure why I was afraid of others when I was already tormenting myself with negative self talk.

I've made mistakes and continue to do so on a daily basis.  In the past, I would proofread my emails half a dozen times before I sent them off so I would not be judged a fool. I would fail to start a project because I didn't have time to complete it perfectly.  I had unrealistic expectation of my children.  I judged others without knowing there story and let that judgement keep me from getting to know them and their story.  I was driving myself crazy by trying to be perfect.  

I am overjoyed that I have inspired friends by posting pictures of my imperfect home.  They know they are not alone.  I hope they are finding a safe place to share their imperfections.  The greatest part is in sharing the group is accepting of each other where ever we our in our journey; whatever our personal goals are.  We just want to see each other succeed.

 I still struggle with the perfection demons from time to time, however, I am more at peace in the general scheme of things.  I actively work to subtract negative self talk.  I do my best to graciously accept compliments.  I've gotten much better at laughing at myself.  Because I don't expect perfection from myself, I am much more kind to my fellow humans and respectful of their journey.  I'm not the judgey person I once was.  If you go back through my blog or happen to be a friend on Facebook, you'll notice I have spelling and grammatical errors.  I leave them there on purpose, if I notice them at all.  It's an exercise in accepting myself and my imperfections. 

Namaste - "I honor the place in you where Spirit lives. I honor the place in you the is of Love, of Truth, of Light, of Peace, when you are in that place in you and I am in that place in me, Then we are One."